At least you found an outlet in writing it off you and helping others in doing so. Not being able to put things to words is indeed a killer. I know some people with war-related PTS*, who transformed before my eyes with psychedelic-assisted therapy, which you refer to on your site. It is not my place to suggest anything as if it were a panacea. Just like you, I can only help by sharing what I know and what I've seen. I can provide contact details of some people in case you want to network.

*some prefer to leave the D off.